Brighter side of life

Everyone has their own problem so do I, but the question is how to solve the problems and try to look at the bright side or look forward. Fortunately, I am able to solve my own problems. I finally able to start doing something that I find it useful such as wake up early in the morning, exercise, reading paper and books, job hunting (as usual), and try to help parents whenever I can. isnt it very useful?ain't u guys agreed? haha.. Although the problems that I am facing are still not totally over, but at least I am moving forward...it seems I am nearly there..just need more time.. anyway, it wont be a good posting I reckon, if I dont type down what my problems are. So here we go, I am always known as a person who helps people out of their problems by giving them advice but somehow I know it is easier to give advice rather than applying it.. Most of my friends always said I am a good listener and adviser, and now I am facing with my own problems, I dont really know who should I turn into? My best friends are not in Singapore and I have less friends over here..Anyway, my problems all started when I finished my study, facing with the problem of looking for jobs I really hate falling in love..,unfortunately I was or I should have said I am :P..this girl, Joyce (not real name), is kind of girl who is spoilt and outspoken, like to be pampered (guess all girls like to be pampered). Initially, I really had no intention of getting a girl friend..as I am always a person who take career as my priority. But somehow, we went out quite frequently and things just turned out to be what I am most afraid of..that's falling in love again..I reckon it is probably the time we spent that caused the feeling grew, although I have never told her how I felt but we already behaved like a couple. Most of my friends, who bumped into me (never say hi or called me though cause they said they didnt want to disturb me) haha, saw what happened and all of them thought that she is my girl friend although she is not. Well, although I told my friends that she is only my friend, none would believe me, but it is normal as I wouldn’t have believed it either if I was my in their position. Sometimes, I was brooding over if I didnt tell her how I felt towards her is a good thing of bad thing? I supposed it is a good thing though (what you guys think), since she finally told me that she still loves her ex and I knew it all along but she just didn’t admit it. Well, at least I have the answer plus our characters and personality are so different, so it is the time to forget her. She also always claimed,” guys are always bad, always treat the girl so sweet when they want to win over the girl, once they do then the girl no longer mean anything”. But hey, I treat u so good but it seems that you never care or u r so ignorant. Well, sometimes I wonder why the way you to talk so rude even if u don’t mean it, but just think of other people’s feeling before you speak out..
One thing that really hurt me was the day when I accompanied you when I supposed to work. How could you tell me I am spoilt rich kid and cannot take hardship. I didn’t want to tell you initially that I supposed to work but somehow I told u accidentally, so I just told you that I had body ache after I worked 2 days ago so I just took day off. Well, I just didn’t want to tell you that I didn’t work just because of you since it might make u feel bad. Part of the reason that I didnt go to work also because of my body ache, this is why I think why I didn’t just take day off since I have promised you to company you. Besides, my body is painful so just take it as a time to relax. This is about the promised yet you said I am spoilt rich kid. It is my family who is rich not me. Darn.
Well, anyway you didn’t mean it when u said this, it was just a teasing remarks.
Whatever it is, I have finally getting there soon, I don’t have the urge to give u a call or talk to you anymore..But I wish you can wake up as well since your ex, from what I saw doesn’t love you ..just want to have fun..but it is not my decision though…wish you all the best..
Part of the reason I can fall in love also because of people influences such as my friends or family. I rejected some girls when I was studying since I wanted to concentrated on my study but now after finishing everyone told me I should find girl friend and I did…well all ended up in a disappointment but who cares….at least I gave myself a chance now..not too bad
Alas, I am awake now from my dream and start doing something useful. Yeah..time to go now cause I have to work today and need to do some exercise to get myself fit and fresh..
Bye for now